Much of the time I have a lot of self-doubt, especially related to my job. Only my relationship with Jesus gives me the strength I need day to day. But occasionally something comes up where I am able to speak up confidently, using the knowledge and experience the Lord has given me to approach an issue on solid ground.
Today my child's kindergarten teacher pulled my husband aside at drop-off and said that our son is behind in his reading. Behind in filling out bookmarks, that is, compared to the other kids. In certain situations, such as if he were truly struggling in reading, I would meet this with meekness and humility, asking help in an area where I need it. However it is refreshing to sometimes be able to speak confidently. This is the body of the email I wrote his teacher (also a coworker of mine, so it's a situation requiring extra tact in which I am usually pretty deficient):
Dear Teacher,
My husband said you talked to him about B's reading
today. That's good, he could be more involved, but I happen to know
that B is a good reader and I am not at all concerned about him. I
taught the Abeka curriculum at the first grade level at MMCS for six years, I have a master's degree in elementary
education and did my thesis on reading at the first grade level, and I
am very confident that B will be more than ready for first grade.
He is reading just as well as my girls did at the same point in
Kindergarten and they are all straight A students.
I have
four kids and I am working now, and I guess I don't have the time the
other kids' parents do to spend hours apparently racking up bookmarks.
It is quality, not quantity, that counts with me and I am very happy
with the quality of his reading. He also reads to me every night at
bedtime from one of his story books and I never write that down, having
too much else to do to worry about busy-work record-keeping like that.
You
have done a great job teaching B to read and we appreciate it, and I
feel great about him starting first grade in the fall.
If I weren't sure that I am right, I would lie awake feeling a lot of self-doubt and praying for Brian's reading and stressing myself out that I am failing. Well, I will save that for another situation because I know Brian is doing great and I really don't care how many little colored bookmarks he has completed. I have confidence through my years of parenting and teaching that I don't need to worry about Brian's reading. I am so grateful to God for this and I lift up praise to Him right now for small victories. I am wrong so so so often. It is so merciful of Him to let me be right now and then.
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